a Diamond in Disguise

i just had another sleepless night
a midnight fully awake
my clock says 3
i feel like death
some empty cups of bru
they ain't bring comfort
i love him without a reason
reasons won't do good right now

i dreamt the other night
didn't know i still could
u saw me and him holding hands
it wasn't very clear
like dirty glass was between me and the image i see

i woke up this morning
i had teary eyes
i swallowed down the heart break
to the part of my chest that holds the pain
i believe all people have that
it feels like my heart is dead
bound by chains and squeezed

this poem will never be happy
but is that not normal
writing thoughts i always think
a happy poem seems so informal and wrong
is formality all that i strive for?
no, i just love him so
thinking about him all day long

my words are slurring like im drunk
i would never do a thing to numb the pain
guess ive had to much time to think
thinking about that hug he gave me
he held me tight and rested his head on mine
he sure gave me something to remember and miss

don't worry this poem will soon be over
i think that quite fair
i love him and i miss him
his just a diamond in disguise
shining down on me, the dirt
not gonna lie it hurts sometimes