Life

I Hurt myself Again
to see if i can still feel pain
i like the pain
because its all thats real

the Razor tears a new cut
the old familiar feeling
i tried to kill it away
but i can't forget the pain
and i couldn't go through with it

what has happened to me?
my Sweetest Friend
everybody i ever knew
goes away eventually

i blown it all
i lost my empire of hope
know all i have is dirt
i have let you down
now i will make me hurt
i brought it myself
i deserve it all
i am nothing to me
i am not a friend but a foe to myself
i have caused it all
and i caused it all
the crumbling, tingling feeling

the boy who was left behind
in a house of grime and mould
just sitting in my chair
forged from lies and tricks
with my cup of broken promises
that will never be fixed

beneath the stains of tears and fear
lie old feelings
ravaged by time
destroyed by me
they are old and dead
never feeling a thing
i am someone else
you are the same
i have lost it all
you trust and love
but also our friendship

and you could have it all
my empire of nothing
you have let me down
and i will make you hurt
he have brought yourself
you deserve it all
you are nothing at all to me
you're not a friend but a foe to me
and you caused it all
the crumbling, tingling feeling

no, mum please don't
im already hurting
the impact of her fist
causes nothing new
ive felt it, all before
i know you hate me
i don't blame you
i hate myself too

the noose is tight
and ready for use
i poked my head through
ready to kick the chair
i never did
they say the book of life has music in it
maybe the song of death
maybe the song of survival
or maybe...
its just really dumb

what is wrong with me?
my only friend
all i ever known is gone
everything i cared about is dead

but i know he would never leave my side
thats all i ask

but some guy
took him away from me
and i will get them back
i will track him down
and i will make him hurt
i will make him pay
i will make him regret the day he took him from me

if i could start again
a billion miles away
ill keep my broken self
and i will find away to fix myself
a new life